So...I'm a lil annoyed at the moment. She just chewed my hiney out for not sticking to pushups, or getting this post done earlier in the day. This is where my sub side goes to war with my "I just wanna do what I want" side.
It's tricky, too. I try to build myself into a dom role to handle her the way she likes...but then it backfires when her "I want things my way" side flares up, and I'm not exactly able to fight off her instructions. Aggravating.
This past week when she visited, I jumped her just about right away. I took her upstairs and tied her to my bed, having her suck me before I fucked her fast and hard, totally taking her for my pleasure. Then I left her, still cuffed to the bed, and went back to work. She freed herself, of course...and that was all there was to it.
We had some fun the next two days, her taking the lead mostly in bed. I was ridden quite a bit, which I've discovered is my favorite position. I was even tied up to the bed, clothespinned, during one of those rounds. THAT was an intense event.
I'm vaguely puzzled by continuing trouble getting hard for her in missionary or doggie positions. I don't understand the problem...or even if there is one. Either way, I think we have our fun.
Till next time...
---Him
Monday, September 24, 2007
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
I know, I know
I've been letting all of you down with me not posting anything. Recently I started a 2nd job that was sucking up all of my spare time apart from sleeping and seeing Him. I decided, for many reasons, to quit that job, so I will be having a lot more opportunity to write here and elsewhere. Just so you all know, I will be writing stories for www.pinktoxins.com as a part of the staff on that website, so if you're at all interested in what that site has to offer, make sure to become a member so you can read all of my stories!
We've both been busy, as well, so our kink hasn't had much of a chance to come out when we've been together, but I went to see him last week and I got a pleasant surprise. He decided one morning to almost immediately tie me up and have his fun with me. It was incredibly erotic and exciting. I was dying for him to put my ball gag in the whole time, however. He made sure to move up and let me suck on him while I was all tied up though, and that was absolutely amazing. He didn't do it for long, though, so I was left wanting more of that. I have discovered I enjoy giving oral quite a lot. Especially when my hands are bound and I can't help but have my face fucked. How exciting!
Today He said He wasn't feeling up to much of anything, but miraculously he started being very Dom! I was pleasantly surprised and made sure to be obedient for Him today. Although, when I asked Him if I could go see a friend about some business matters, He was unsure and told me He wanted several things done tonight and that He was going to be home a little later because of an errand and hanging out with a friend. I asked what friend and I got the name of a friend I hadn't heard of before. When I questioned Him, He responded with "maybe I'll tell you later", which really ticked me off, and I can't explain why! So I told Him I was going without permission, and I know I will be in trouble, but I can handle the consequences of my actions.
To be honest, when I rolled over asking Him to stop spanking me I wanted him to tie me down and keep going. He didn't, but I think He might in the future. I hope so. I've told him I've considered giving up my safe word.
Here's to healthy lifestyles.
-Her
We've both been busy, as well, so our kink hasn't had much of a chance to come out when we've been together, but I went to see him last week and I got a pleasant surprise. He decided one morning to almost immediately tie me up and have his fun with me. It was incredibly erotic and exciting. I was dying for him to put my ball gag in the whole time, however. He made sure to move up and let me suck on him while I was all tied up though, and that was absolutely amazing. He didn't do it for long, though, so I was left wanting more of that. I have discovered I enjoy giving oral quite a lot. Especially when my hands are bound and I can't help but have my face fucked. How exciting!
Today He said He wasn't feeling up to much of anything, but miraculously he started being very Dom! I was pleasantly surprised and made sure to be obedient for Him today. Although, when I asked Him if I could go see a friend about some business matters, He was unsure and told me He wanted several things done tonight and that He was going to be home a little later because of an errand and hanging out with a friend. I asked what friend and I got the name of a friend I hadn't heard of before. When I questioned Him, He responded with "maybe I'll tell you later", which really ticked me off, and I can't explain why! So I told Him I was going without permission, and I know I will be in trouble, but I can handle the consequences of my actions.
To be honest, when I rolled over asking Him to stop spanking me I wanted him to tie me down and keep going. He didn't, but I think He might in the future. I hope so. I've told him I've considered giving up my safe word.
Here's to healthy lifestyles.
-Her
Saturday, September 8, 2007
(I'm a) Bad Boy
I'm sitting here hard as a rock and having no idea when my next climax is gonna be. I'm loving AND hating this all at once, but I know I totally deserve it.
For the second time I disobeyed her very simple directions. After leaving her, I was told to go home and jerk off right away. I failed to do this twice in the same week...once Monday, and once Thursday. The first time, I was kept pent up for a day to teach me a lesson. It obviously didn't work, because I let myself get distracted again Thursday.
I feel bad, because I simply forgot. It was awful of me to forget her very simple direction. To let it slip my mind completely. I so deserve the frustration I'm in now, and the sub in me hopes she doesn't cut me any slack.
She's very busy at work for the next few days, same days that I'm off. This has the double effect of keeping me horny when I've got the chance to jerk off, and also while she's away. I hate being frustrated, wanting to play, and knowing she's not able. It's a very fitting punishment whether intended or not.
I'm humiliated at being punished like a lil kid, but loving it as well. I really WANT to learn my lesson and be a good boy...just...maybe in not such a torturous way?
---Him
For the second time I disobeyed her very simple directions. After leaving her, I was told to go home and jerk off right away. I failed to do this twice in the same week...once Monday, and once Thursday. The first time, I was kept pent up for a day to teach me a lesson. It obviously didn't work, because I let myself get distracted again Thursday.
I feel bad, because I simply forgot. It was awful of me to forget her very simple direction. To let it slip my mind completely. I so deserve the frustration I'm in now, and the sub in me hopes she doesn't cut me any slack.
She's very busy at work for the next few days, same days that I'm off. This has the double effect of keeping me horny when I've got the chance to jerk off, and also while she's away. I hate being frustrated, wanting to play, and knowing she's not able. It's a very fitting punishment whether intended or not.
I'm humiliated at being punished like a lil kid, but loving it as well. I really WANT to learn my lesson and be a good boy...just...maybe in not such a torturous way?
---Him
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Saturday, August 18, 2007
Pink Toxins
I've got a friend who is into his own flavor of kink, and it happens to mix a little with the lifestyle my man and I have. Since this friend is a pretty close friend of mine, I have decided to link his site on our blog.
Do enjoy, it is a mainly PG site as far as photos and other things are concerned. I have linked it under "Places We Like", but I will also link it here.
Pink Toxins should be a treat for those of you who dare to explore it.
-Her
Do enjoy, it is a mainly PG site as far as photos and other things are concerned. I have linked it under "Places We Like", but I will also link it here.
Pink Toxins should be a treat for those of you who dare to explore it.
-Her
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Rawr
I want to put something here. But I'm not terribly wound up. I'm not terribly...anything. Right now I'm being punished for not being able to keep my hands off myself. I have to ask before masturbating...and she's been just stingy enough to keep me frustrated, but not stingy enough to be cruel.
I'm constantly torn by my desire to submit to her and to control her. Especially now...I simultaneously want revenge and to be broken. I want to be punished as a bad boy and to teach her proper respect for me.
I deeply adore submitting to her, almost more than anything. But...that's not all. I enjoy controlling her, being the absolute arbiter of what she does. The dynamic works in two different way...to be taken care of because I'm a treasured pet, and to be taken care of because my pet treasures me.
No real point...just some kink musing for you tonight, dear reader.
---Him
I'm constantly torn by my desire to submit to her and to control her. Especially now...I simultaneously want revenge and to be broken. I want to be punished as a bad boy and to teach her proper respect for me.
I deeply adore submitting to her, almost more than anything. But...that's not all. I enjoy controlling her, being the absolute arbiter of what she does. The dynamic works in two different way...to be taken care of because I'm a treasured pet, and to be taken care of because my pet treasures me.
No real point...just some kink musing for you tonight, dear reader.
---Him
Monday, August 13, 2007
Meeting in the country
So we decided to meet between where we live from each other, in a small town community, to see a movie together and spend some time with each other after I had been out of the area for the past 3 days and had NO outside communication. Apparently he had been going crazy not being able to contact me, and I returned to find a good 2 handfuls of emails from him telling me how much he missed me and how he was annoyed he couldn't even tell me the smallest thing, like that he'd gotten a haircut. How flattering :)
I'm finding it more and more confusing, mentally, trying to figure out what exactly I want most of the time. I'm finding more and more that I really am a switch. Sometimes I'm wanting to jump him on the spot, tie him down and have my way with him. But then other times I just want him to hold me down, kiss me forcefully and just have his fun with me.
-Yes, I do admit to having a rape fantasy... but what woman doesn't?-
During the movie I decided I'd tease and torture him a little bit. There was only one couple in there besides us and I thought it would be really fun to have a wriggling, squirmy boy in the seat next to me. So I made sure to tickle his sides, his belly, his underarms, and I even reached a hand up his shorts to tickle his privates that he was silly enough to leave sans underwear. And he wanted to do that for the thrill of having no underwear. I gave him his thrill. Even afterwards, when we were just hanging out in my car, I had my fun tickling him and teasing him. From licking and kissing his neck to licking and sucking and breathing gently into his ear, he and I worked ourselves up to the point we were considering finding a secluded area. But we thought better of it and just left the teasing to what it was.
As fun as it was having the upper hand in the whole teasing thing... I had the strongest desire for him to take me into the back seat - leave all clothes on - lay on top of me, make out with me, grope and squeeze and tease my breasts, play with my oh-so-sensitive neck, wrap his strong, manly hand around my throat and squeeze as he kisses me. I really do get amazingly turned on when he starts choking me. Unfortunately this didn't play out - I wasn't surprised, considering the circumstances - but I still have the fantasy, and someday it will come true!
-Her
I'm finding it more and more confusing, mentally, trying to figure out what exactly I want most of the time. I'm finding more and more that I really am a switch. Sometimes I'm wanting to jump him on the spot, tie him down and have my way with him. But then other times I just want him to hold me down, kiss me forcefully and just have his fun with me.
-Yes, I do admit to having a rape fantasy... but what woman doesn't?-
During the movie I decided I'd tease and torture him a little bit. There was only one couple in there besides us and I thought it would be really fun to have a wriggling, squirmy boy in the seat next to me. So I made sure to tickle his sides, his belly, his underarms, and I even reached a hand up his shorts to tickle his privates that he was silly enough to leave sans underwear. And he wanted to do that for the thrill of having no underwear. I gave him his thrill. Even afterwards, when we were just hanging out in my car, I had my fun tickling him and teasing him. From licking and kissing his neck to licking and sucking and breathing gently into his ear, he and I worked ourselves up to the point we were considering finding a secluded area. But we thought better of it and just left the teasing to what it was.
As fun as it was having the upper hand in the whole teasing thing... I had the strongest desire for him to take me into the back seat - leave all clothes on - lay on top of me, make out with me, grope and squeeze and tease my breasts, play with my oh-so-sensitive neck, wrap his strong, manly hand around my throat and squeeze as he kisses me. I really do get amazingly turned on when he starts choking me. Unfortunately this didn't play out - I wasn't surprised, considering the circumstances - but I still have the fantasy, and someday it will come true!
-Her
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